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There is a concern my heart for more than five years, I cannot say, also cannot external for humanity.

I 76 years strangers, five years ago, I fell in love with the spring had a long I am 13 years old man. As the days passed, he did not disappear from my memory, but he feels more powerful.

In this small place, he is a good man, in the social influence among peers, I also develop well.

That year in March, a chance to go out of me and his peers. Before each other, we just know, but I have no contact with him, he is not understood. Peer third day, I suddenly found themselves hopelessly fell in love with him, and his wisdom, composed, collect and charm, is what I’ve since the teenage sex. At the same time, my sixth sense told me, he also have to me. However, the thought that he and I are already married, I use the siege reason over all feelings, mask.

I very traditional, after days, although emotional ran out of god, spirit tracks, but I don’t want to betrayal of marriage. Here, I want to introduce my marriage, my husband and I are peers, he is a loyal, guileless, tolerant, is a very talented person. Ten years ago, when we get married, say nothing is thin, the roof came today, we have a child, house, car, also have certain career success, we partaking won the admiration of the age, her husband is indeed a trusted lifelong. Of course, everything is divided, on the surface of the scenery behind, I also have the marriage of anguish, this not dumb to any one of the difficulties and speak with my life might be. My marriage, love, rather than is appreciated and capricious asked me to marry him.

So, in the family, the responsibility and moral and sensible, I choose to before his silence, with the passage of time, he will disappear from my memory, everything tends calm.

However, due to our place is small, I often pay attention to him or casual, I always think of him, whenever this time, I’ll miss out, deep into bottom of poem encouraged. Over the past five years, the secret feelings linger in mind, let a person very depressed.

Until the day of march, it is finally changed. That day is my love him for five days, because the anniversary dinner guest at noon, small wind have time for work comes to change is very confused and helpless, I’ll borrow the JiuYi, courage, he sent SMS, of course, not for anonymous talk about feelings. First, we can say is twice information where he later after know who I am, I think maybe a bit brinkmanship because of my husband and my husband (familiar) because business relationship, may my emotions expressed his wits. Later, I quit because reserved in touch with him.

To say, I was out of the heart of five years, finish all should relax. But after that, contrary to his aftertaste, before the understanding is shallow layers, perceptual, through several of his communication, I have a more profound understanding of, he is very wise, his people can understand. He told me the job of inspiration and guidance, not only helps me out of the heart, I try to the plight of the depth of the well every step, and makes me more clear and settlement of self, but life path. Can say, he makes my life, I true enlightened about your own inner pursuit is what, I even as I had to send text messages and abrupt lucky and liberty. I think of him can be used to describe a lyrics, “read you again not tired, you feel like spring, the joy of the classic, beautiful poem”.

Now, I’m confused, I think I can understand his few people outside, I sent him at the end of the message is that, “the world is very easy to understand the wisdom of the wise, but the wise can not bring enlightened the state”, and I think he continued contact (and his broken links, we have three times before the flight and is twice in public places, we each other to avoid eye contact with each other. The third on the way, his nonchalance encounter to greet me smile, I also suppressed inner bang in the same way he dynamic response). But I didn’t reach his family, also don’t betray my marriage, I just want to listen to him often teach, make my mind more wisdom, make my life more efficiently, and make my life more color!

He is a very safe and prudent man, I am sure that, if I really worry too much and he will be missed.

I am very contradictory, is courage, cleaning, and he continued custom, let him hold an efficient guide me life? Still be sorry, helpless, give up and he continued, placid orderly life? (ANan)